I really don't want to write today.
But I made this commitment to myself and told a few people that my goal was to write daily. This is the best way for me to stay accountable to the process.
Today my heart feels a little worn, a little haggard, a bit tattered. The same 'ole same 'ole come back around again to poke and prod at tender places, hurting places, skittish places.
I'm trying to sit with them a little bit and listen to what my heart is saying, processing with God these complicated matters of memories and mistakes and things I cannot change. It's not an easy place to sit for long because I'm vulnerable and exposed without my walls of self-protection carefully guarding my heart.
Although my allotted writing time is far from up, I'm going to give myself some grace today. I've also committed to a few other daily habits-to-form like painting and guitar-playing, so I'll give extra time to those today.
Or maybe I'll just take a nap.
But I made this commitment to myself and told a few people that my goal was to write daily. This is the best way for me to stay accountable to the process.
Today my heart feels a little worn, a little haggard, a bit tattered. The same 'ole same 'ole come back around again to poke and prod at tender places, hurting places, skittish places.
I'm trying to sit with them a little bit and listen to what my heart is saying, processing with God these complicated matters of memories and mistakes and things I cannot change. It's not an easy place to sit for long because I'm vulnerable and exposed without my walls of self-protection carefully guarding my heart.
Although my allotted writing time is far from up, I'm going to give myself some grace today. I've also committed to a few other daily habits-to-form like painting and guitar-playing, so I'll give extra time to those today.
Or maybe I'll just take a nap.
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